Well its been a while I had lots of tests including another MRI and I will be starting physical therapy this week and pain management.
I'm so very happy for spring time I love this time of year to freshen up and decluter and clean and organize I just love it, all things fresh and new hope, as you see signs of the grass little sprouts of green and the weather starting to warm up.
Today was wonderful I put away that electric blanket and refreshed the linens, and I'm just about done with all my organizing and declutering,today I cleaned out the last of the draws in the bathroom and finally I am rid of things I no longer use, I have always been a person that loves clean neat and order and one of my frustrations I have struggled with in my journey in the season of my life is how my body has changed with my mind I no longer have the physical ability to do what my brain wants to do, after a long struggle with this I have decided to first thank and praise the lord for the abilities I do have, I don't want to take for granted, so instead of being frustrated just learn to do what I can at my pace and ask for help. For me this is definitely new, I have always been independent and hard working would start early in the morning and work till late evening and still have a emaculant house,and as for asking for help it just seem to take to long so I always did it myself, I can no longer do those things and have learned the hard way its not priority either.(A lightly messy house with the sound of children's laughter is priceless, a sink full of dishes and the kitchen table surrounded with the people you love the most is way more important and sweet, sorry I got off track were talking about spring cleaning.
So I have been learning to just do one step at a time small steps small tasks it will get done sooner or later, I used to want it done in one day,
Another new challenge as I start this new journey is what now? what's next? and where do I fit in? I don't fit in the group of young ladies that get together with the kids at the park for lunch, or ball, though I feel I do, where did the time go?" and I'm only 50 due to my health I m not as active as I wish to be I had just been trying to grasp this new number 50 I still think of myself of 30, there are 70 year olds that amaze me the great thing is that I had discussed this with my Doctor and we will work on a plan together so I can get where I need to be your body doesn't just bounce back after pancreatic cancer it just doesn't, but if God has me hear I am determined to be the woman he has called me to be I want to be a proverbs woman thou I'm far from it the Lords gracious mercy will continue the work he has started so I'm not as active as before I move slower, I can pray more, if I don't fit it with the young moms I can learn so much from this wonderful ladies and maybe I can offer something to them, and older ones really teach me a thing or two not to mention I may be able to share with them, The point is I have so much to be grateful and thankful for I love you Lord!!!! and if the Lord is not finished with me I need to learn to listen maybe slowing down is more time to be quite and listen to the Lords voice,to pray more. If you are in this season in your life there are websites and books to help you in this journey by wonderful women thank God for this tool these woman put together I must say its helping me and Im ready for this new season of my life with so many blessings and gratitude,
I'm so very happy for spring time I love this time of year to freshen up and decluter and clean and organize I just love it, all things fresh and new hope, as you see signs of the grass little sprouts of green and the weather starting to warm up.
Today was wonderful I put away that electric blanket and refreshed the linens, and I'm just about done with all my organizing and declutering,today I cleaned out the last of the draws in the bathroom and finally I am rid of things I no longer use, I have always been a person that loves clean neat and order and one of my frustrations I have struggled with in my journey in the season of my life is how my body has changed with my mind I no longer have the physical ability to do what my brain wants to do, after a long struggle with this I have decided to first thank and praise the lord for the abilities I do have, I don't want to take for granted, so instead of being frustrated just learn to do what I can at my pace and ask for help. For me this is definitely new, I have always been independent and hard working would start early in the morning and work till late evening and still have a emaculant house,and as for asking for help it just seem to take to long so I always did it myself, I can no longer do those things and have learned the hard way its not priority either.(A lightly messy house with the sound of children's laughter is priceless, a sink full of dishes and the kitchen table surrounded with the people you love the most is way more important and sweet, sorry I got off track were talking about spring cleaning.
So I have been learning to just do one step at a time small steps small tasks it will get done sooner or later, I used to want it done in one day,
Another new challenge as I start this new journey is what now? what's next? and where do I fit in? I don't fit in the group of young ladies that get together with the kids at the park for lunch, or ball, though I feel I do, where did the time go?" and I'm only 50 due to my health I m not as active as I wish to be I had just been trying to grasp this new number 50 I still think of myself of 30, there are 70 year olds that amaze me the great thing is that I had discussed this with my Doctor and we will work on a plan together so I can get where I need to be your body doesn't just bounce back after pancreatic cancer it just doesn't, but if God has me hear I am determined to be the woman he has called me to be I want to be a proverbs woman thou I'm far from it the Lords gracious mercy will continue the work he has started so I'm not as active as before I move slower, I can pray more, if I don't fit it with the young moms I can learn so much from this wonderful ladies and maybe I can offer something to them, and older ones really teach me a thing or two not to mention I may be able to share with them, The point is I have so much to be grateful and thankful for I love you Lord!!!! and if the Lord is not finished with me I need to learn to listen maybe slowing down is more time to be quite and listen to the Lords voice,to pray more. If you are in this season in your life there are websites and books to help you in this journey by wonderful women thank God for this tool these woman put together I must say its helping me and Im ready for this new season of my life with so many blessings and gratitude,
For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope!
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